well i guess when you havnet updated in 2 months that usually means its time to do so. Im doing very well, pretty tired and busy..as you'll see from the time of this post its early in the morning it seems thats the only time i have to do anything and on top of that its the time when i think the best. There is no time better than the early morning, never thought i'd hear myself saying that but its true. I have so much joy and happiness right now, God has been so gracious and merciful and nice, yes God's been nice, dont you love those ppl who after you first meet them you go away thinking they were such a nice person...God is the same way, He's always there, He's not all up in your face all the time, He speaks softly and if your listening its pretty easy to hear. He's been my helper, my protector and He's my best friend, and I'm starting to realize that he can do a better job that than any person on this planet, it's really cool, once you start just trusting Him with it all, to see all the benefits. Trusting him with my money has been awesome, i can freely give to ppl and know that God is going to somehow bless it, the coolest thing is that i get to picture my self as Gods wrench, I like wrenches best because we act like a bucket of nuts and bolts so often God comes along with His wrenches and tightens and loosens those nuts till they're just right. It's our choice whether we want to be a wrench or a nut, personally i think the wrench is more fun, even though i do act like a nut allot. there is more but if i dont leave now I'm gonna be late for work, and no one wants to be late for work, especially during busy season.
If you read this I miss you and pray for you every day,
God's blessings on you all

im here

Hey everyone, im still here, hopefully i'll start to post a little more often....Lauren just left this morning at 5a.m. if ya'll ever have a free minute and you want to write her that would mean allot to her, the address is
Lauren Fuller
c/o Indianapolis Training Center – Equip
2820 N Meridian St.
Indianapolis, IN 46208
so write her if ou get the chance....=)
Allot has been going on with myself lately, Im working on getting onto the San Antonio Fire Department, I'm passed the first step which was the written exam and now im getting ready for the physical exam which should be within the next 2 months or so.....I want to thank all of you who have been praying for me, God is so good, his loving kindness is everlasting. He is so merciful, its so incredible to me to think of how much i deserve from God....NOTHING.....no....i deserve hell, the worst place one could imagine of, the worst torture practices all combined to bring nothing but pain and suffering, but NO! Im loved by a God who doesnt give up after i make a mistake....and who doesn't try me with things i can't handle, instead he forgives and he refines and renews grows and nurtures me into a weapon that he will use to strike down the enemy...isnt that awesome? isnt He....to much for words? I love our God, He is incredible.
Let me know if ya'll still read this blog and whether i should keep updating it..=)

Ok fine but this is probably my last update, im very busy with work and studying for clep tests and fire tests and working around my house since luke and aaron dont do squat....well....maybe thats a bit of an exaderation but i do do more work at the house than them....a little....well, im finally graduated, yippeekayeh....we had a nice little ceremony and party after where i got lots of stuff and....... well.....money =D.... it was a good day till we had to go see pirates 364xsqupkI3k, i think everyone else had a good time though. =/ .......Yup, and im now 19, as most of yall can probably see im getting pretty fat, one of those signs of aging i suppose.....oh yeah, i bought myself a puppy for my birthday, a black lab with a little bit of border collie, i named him Maverick, nothing to do with the basketball team just like the name. He's a really good dog, i take him in my truck all the time and he always waits till he gets out of the truck to........relieve himself so to speak.....and thats a pretty big plus if you ask me. =). anyway, i probably wont update for quite a while so i guess ill see yall around
Love ya'll

UDATE CALEB!!!!!

ok ok......so i suppose there has been stuff going on the past month. Im working for the Window Gang now washing...you got it....windows!....yeah, so the other day i realized that sometimes i can get in touch with my feminine side, the other day i was working with joe and andrew talking about the beautiful women in our lives and the ones that used to be ;), and at one of our jobs we were cleaning off a patio and there were some dirt spots that the pressure washer wouldnt get off....so...i had to go get a scrub brush and bucket and get my hands and knees and scrub the dirt off the patio....well....frankly i felt like......well......cinderella...and if you had seen me you would have agreed. it was sad... I think i even started singing about prince charming....=D

anyway work is fun, im also graduating in a month, yay.......we took pics a couple weeks ago with Vanessa which turned out really good and we really liked them even in spite of alex.....*shakes head*. other than work and graduation there hasnt been a whole lot going on....xept for the fire department...we got to set a car on fire the other day....awesome stuff. Any time you ask a firefighter if they want to set some thing on fire and put it out we start freakin out, we put a bunch of trash in this van, soaked it in gasoline put a flare in it and that thing was.....well...on fire...yeah, and 3 of us rookies went in there and kicked its butt, yeah!

anyway its 12:12 and i have church tomorrow, today, whatever.

Love ya'll!

FOOTBALL!....yeah...tonight was the freshmen state reps vs the veteran state reps at the Longhorns practice field.....the first half went bad for the freshmen when the veterans scored twice 15-0.....well....my dad (a freshman) pulled his hamstring......aww shucks, his backup had to come in.......ME!....well....i guess the freshmen didn't score at all in the second half....but the veterans had all the good players and even though i had two, dare i say, beautiful interceptions and several other good plays we still lost 21-0....all the other reps said i kicked as.......oh yeah......hind potts or something like that.

This is my last full week to work up here at the capitol....yay and darn at the same time....oh well, im coming home and going to work at the Window Gang...yeah, for those of you i haven't already told, im getting rid of my lawn and landscape business.....as nice as it is to work for myself, i think God is leading me down a different path as to what my job is going to be, not sure what it is but we'll see......im really pumped about going back to the fire department, i haven't been there since Christmas and its been killing me.

other than that...luke and i are coming up here for friday and saturday to stay with Adam. Then we're coming back for church staying for a while after (no way you can drag away early), and then going up to play soccer with adam and a bunch of his friends.

well, there's my update,
bye

Update

Its....*checks calender*...Tuesday, yeah, im up in Austin for, most likely, my last full week. Ill probably come back a few days a week but i need to get back home and work.
Aaron had a debate tournament last weekend.....nerdsville......there were allot of cool ppl, i think everyone on his team was cool, but.......if you ever want to go see some nerds go to a debate tournament. Its not like im trying to be mean or anything, some of them are pretty cool, but i heard some kids debating on the stupidest things you could debate on and it was....yeah, nerdy. Oh well, he has another tournament next weekend in Houston so it should be fun.

Something i realized this weekend was when your away from your family for long periods of time the time that you spend them when your with them is FUN......you guys know that me and my bros don't always get along, well...sunday night we went to rimrock ranch and played basketball for 2 hours....we played so bad...we couldn't stop laughing, and then we tried to come home and go into our mom and dads room and act like we had been fighting the whole time, but as soon as we walked in we fell on the floor and just started laughing =D.....they were kinda freaked out. and that night we stayed up till 2:00 just talking.

Abigail's birthday was yesterday, she turned five. My mom has never had a youngest kid that was five before. My mom's getting......*thinks*........younger looking every day. =)

then there was today....>:(.......i was supposed to wake up at 6:30 to get ready to leave this morning but i forgot to set an alarm and mom woke me up at 7.....so i rushed around got my dress shoes, a belt, my wallet and my phone and ran out the door so i could get my mom to austin by 9:15...on the way up i realized i forgot my keys....oh well, i can survive without them since i dont have the truck this week, it just has one of our two apartment keys on it...no biggie....well, when we got to the apartment i started going through all my shirts in my closet i realized didnt have any dress pants, so i called luke and drove all the way down to new braunfels to get my pants.....so i went back to austin and went to the office....my mom came by the office then went home.....however.....when she got to new braunfels she found my DADS keys in her purse....so i met her halfway to get the keys......its been one those "im so stupid" days............... ........AAAHHH!!!!!....oh well.

God is good

ttyl

How Big is Your God?

I know that in my own life i find myself thinking, "I'll put God in this part of my life, but i think i can handle this part."...haha.....sound familiar? I think its something that we all struggle with at some point or another, we think "i just need to deal with this by myself".....1 Corinthians 1:25 says "For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength."

What a thought, even if i knew everything that a man could know my God in His "foolishness!" would be wiser. So again, How Big is Your God? He's bigger than anything we could ever be. We take a situation and think we know whats going to happen next, we say "no, that cant happen."...guess what, with God it can. We just have to trust Him.

On Sunday night we had a big storm, I was kinda down, kinda confused....really confused. You know, things going on in life that i want to fix right now. well i was in my room, my bros were talking a little, the thunder was loud and i as trying to think......now im not exactly sure what it was(probably God) that made me go outside, but i did. I went out there and in about one minute i was soaking wet. And as i was standing there with the lighting flashing and the rain pouring, trying to convince God why things needed to go a certain way.......then i stopped. I was frustrated, i was freezing, water was flowing from my hair to my face. So, i simply asked "what should i do God? what do You want me to do?" Well i dont know what i was expecting but its hard to explain how it happened. It was like everything went silent, my head was completely clear of any thoughts, and then it was like He wrote it down on a plain white piece of paper with a black marker....it was simply "TRUST ME".....thats all....i quickly jumped in with reasons why that wasn't specific enough as if i could talk God into giving me more info. But the answer just kept coming back "Don't worry, just trust Me."
Philippians 4:6,7 says
"6Do not be anxious (worry) about anything, but in everything, by prayer and suplication, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

I mean, what can honestly go wrong when its in His hands. Not only is the situation off our chest but we get a "peace that surpasses all understanding."

Its not always going to be easy, but trusting Him will never hurt us, it can only turn out good.

Make your requests known to God.
Love ya'll